My Colorful Life - in Almighty Hand Forever

At home .. Him: How is your days? Me: OK. Him: Have you had dinner? Me: I had already. Him: Why you not waiting for me? Me: I am busy, I need to finish the work. Him: Do you need something ? Coffee or tea ? Me: Hmmm no. thanks. Him: Some cookies? Me: No. Him: Today there is something bad in work. Very very annoying man. So proud of himself. Me: Hmmm .. oo Him: You know him, guess he is your friend. Me: Really, what is his name? Him: Alex the celebrity. Me: which one I don't remember. Him: The one we met in the Mary's party. A man with strange dress. He came with his sister. You too had conversation remember? Me: O that Alex. A wonderful man indeed. Him: Pardon me ? Me: Yes, he is a nice gentlemen, we have same hobbies. And he is very nice to his sister and his family. Him: He is a very very bad man. He even talk to people without looking to their faces. Me: Why you say that? Him: This morning in the meeting. That what he done. Me: I don't believe it. Him: Why you not believ...

A friend of mine, someday after had conversation had told me "You are too extreme" The reason is, well there are some points which he considered for me being an extremist .. in life. WOW ... surprise me. I still don;t think I am so extreme. So for you I will describe the points he mentioned. 1. planning. For me for many aspects in life must plan it, for example we plan for next week where are we going beside the routine work, what is the special appointment etc. Do I need to prepare special dress for special occasion, if so do I need to purchase one, if so how much is the budget and when can I go to the shops ? This all about set aside the time for some 'must-do' or 'will-do' things. 2. importance of information In order to make it of course I will need information. What information? Information about the events before, long enough for me to make the decision how to set the time and manage the activities. What to prepare for it. Information to give some unders...

This morning I had project defense. Fur you who don't know what is it, just imagine that the project presenter must present the project in front of committee members, the members will asking questions about the project. The difficult part is to explain our project as brief as possible while also present some important detail of the project so that the committee members have an understanding of what we have done and the results. After passed it, all I can say is the preparation is much more difficult and more complex than the presentation itself. I spend several days for the preparation. From the power point concept I was helped by two-expert-friend who suggested me to include/exclude some points in the slides. And then to include all the diagrams (the project has some diagrams as the design of the new system) in the power point it took more than 1 days, including to format the pages. I also spent some time to read the report and made summary for presentation. Finally, it took only ...

I am already feel so boring with his this-and-this-chat and my answer oh-uhm-yes ... But I can not be impolite as he is polite to me. Still a voice in my heart remind not to trust him, beneath of those are some ugly faces ... wow, what I am supposed to do ? And nobody joining our conversation as they are traveling to another world ... At a point he mention something inevitably interesting to me: he likes comic! And he likes Conan Detective. wow. well things become more difficult now ... so I have more words to reply in this interesting topic that I almost forgot that he is the man I 'should be careful of' and the topic goes to another hot topic : children, photography, music. Is he really the man ? Until then I gain myself and try to reduce the hotness of our conversation ... Yes, I can not be too open to this man. I know he is something, there is something unpleasant he will hurt me again .. I will not let this happen. And I shall be more careful. Well, to be honest from our c...

Kuingat akan kabar dari keluargaku. Saya harus pulang meneruskan usaha orang tuaku di Kalimantan. Saya tidak siap, tapi keadaan memaksaku. Sebagai anak tertua saya bertanggung jawab untuk meneruskan usaha orang tuaku. Seandainya pamanku masih hidup, saya tidak akan bersedia pulang. Tapi, siapa yang bisa menggariskan hidup manusia selain dari Yang Maha Kuasa? Saya hanya bisa menuruti kemauan orang tuaku. Saat terakhir makan malam perpisahan dengan teman-teman. Saya benar-benar terpancing emosi. Entah kenapa ... kata-katamu yang sederhana saja bisa membuatku marah. Kamu benar-benar tidak berperasaan. Saat-saat seperti ini masih bisa menggodaku. Pikiranku dipenuhi dengan bagaimana saya akan memulai hariku di Kalimantan. Belum memikirkan mendelegasikan tugas-tugas kantor. Belum lagi menjelaskan beberapa bagian tugas yang kamu harus mengerti dan kuasai, sungguh saya tidak tega meninggalkanmu. Mengertilah, saya tidak bisa lagi membantumu. Saya tidak bisa lagi mendampingimu. Sehari sebelum sa...

Kamu Jakarta, Juni 2004 by Paula Sudah hampir setahun aku berpisah darimu, namun tiada satupun kabar darimu. Tidak sms, tidak telepon tidak juga imel. Padahal aku sudah berusaha mengirimkan imel kepadamu. Aku berusaha mengirimkan sms meski keadaan keuanganku lagi ketat. Setiap hari aku dengan setia berharap kabar darimu. Aku mengecek imel dengan wajah berseri berharap ada kabar dari orang yang kunanti. Bahkan aku pun berusaha memantau kabarmu dari teman-teman. Namun harapan dan penantianku sepertinya sia-sia. Aku jadi ragu apa yang selama ini kamu katakan kepadaku. Katamu kamu suka aku, katamu aku sangat menyenangkan, dan katamu pula aku sangat berbeda dengan wanita yang lainnya. Apakah itu dibandingkan dengan mantan pacarmu ataukah dengan gadis-gadis lain yang pernah kamu dekati, apakah itu hanya gombalan mu aja, toh saya juga tidak pernah tahu pasti. Sebulan terakhir sebelum kita berpisah, campur aduk perasaan di dalam dadaku. Hatiku berkata kamu cukup ok, penampilan fisik bolehlah w...

So far there is no problem. Everytime we work together there is other person around, and I will keep them around as long as possible. And I will disappear before the other leave me, with I-don't-know-how but eventually I make it. One day, we have to go to upcountry to visit a rural area where lived a community. Five of us in a campus car. The ourney will take 4 hours .. quite long ... so I've prepare books to read, CD and CD player. And also some snacks and candies. I wear a white cotton shirt, and beige long pants the one I feel comfortable. With the flat shoes I feel more relax. In the car I try to listen to the CD I brought. But i was boring, I want to join their conversation. so we talk about our students, how sweet they are. Sometime we are soo tired because of their stubborness and laziness, but when they can manage to do something well we are very proud of. One by one fall asleep, now only me and him. So, I try to draw my attention to the right side of me, out of the win...